The book of john, it mention various time about who Jesus is. Until now, sometimes, i might have a doubt about who jesus is. Sometimes i asked myself again, whats with me and Christianity?, why am i following this 'way'. or is jesus really is the messiah? i often lose conviction...
but, Looking at this passage, gives me the answers and remind me once again who jesus is.
John8:12- I am the from above.
:20 - I am the good Shepard
-I am the Resurrection
- I am the way and the light.
In john 9:1-4 THE HEALING OF THE BLIND MAN
this is, there were 4 characters.
1. The Neighbour- They saw and heard with their very own ears and eyes, they saw the miracles jesus did. Making the blind see, but they were skeptical.
They were criticising, thinking of ways to find a weak point, or a negative spot. Sometimes when we see something, or heard about it, we tend to find mistrust.
2. The Pharisees- They think of this as a breaking of tradition, that Jesus is a trouble-making prejudice.
They put a limit to their own mindset. To such a standard that they judge everything. They stop and give up seeking, and stop in righteousness. They become Prejudice. They saw, they heard about the blind man, but still they keep questioning him, when the answer was obvious and right in front of their eyes.
3. Parents- they had fear. They did not just make a stand. i mean c'mon, their son was healed, but instead of praising god, and thanking jesus, they felt scared.
and last 4. The blind man. -he was simple in answering: ''i was blind, but now i see''.
Dear god, thank you so much that this awesome lesson was taught by ZQ. god im so happy that aunt grace and her family are here, to help the church, my parents and me. God i have learn sooooooo much just by a story in the bible of yours. It doesn't only help me spiritually, but physically. God im sorry i was so naive and always have a thinking that i am lost, i am following this nonsense, and i always think, was jesus real? like i had soooooooo many doubts.
But god one of the answer is, Jesus changed me. Who in this world will die for my sin? and love me, and promise me i will have eternal life? where can i find words and stories about living the way god wants me to, or the right life? God in this century, this time, if i was not preach to the bible, or not told, god only you know what i will become today.
Sometimes i ask, why jesus? why christian? then i thought back about the word study, about seeking god, sometimes just refreshing back, i gain the answers from different point of view. God i was lost, mess up, and you were there to lift me, change me. And look at me now god, not only my life had change, but my surroundings, was inspired because of my life, of how you use me now, and what i learnt from you.
God, i don't want to be like the neighbours, pharisees, or the blind man parents. I want to be like the blind man. God i was blind, but now i can see. That's me. You open up my eyes, show me what life is all about, what LOVE is all about. God you were there to pull my parents back together. They were literally falling apart, but because of you god. they manage to fix things.
God i really want to pray that my conviction will continue to grow, god i want to grow for you. I know how power full you are and how much you love me. God, there is no other greater love than you. I pray that i will learn, how to love. God you are not only powerful but gentle.
God i will be having my trials tmr, pls help me through because i know i really do need you. God please, i want to do well in this trials, and my SPM. :D
god i want to pray for my relationship with my sister, god pls teach me how to be a good example, and i want to love her and want her to know that i love her and care about her. God please open my heart, and hers.
God i love you so much, thank you again for what you have done in my life, all this amazing miracles. In jesus name i pray, Amen.
Monday, 5 September 2011
Thursday, 1 September 2011
Chapter 4
God i have been really into the book of Acts. At first i didnt pay deep attention, i thought it was just stories about paul, and how churches were formed. But then few months ago, my dad really sat down, and teach verse by verse about the book of ACTS, i realised that it was not stories, but yes a really convicting message from you.
God i learn how much the diciple in the old days, how much they did for you. God they didnt have cars to travel, or technology to contact each other, in-fact they had nothing of the materialistic things in the world.
But god i learnt that what kept them living strong was their faith in you. God they trusted you, you who lead them out of egpyt, out of slavery. You how changed them, perform wondorous miricales. God those who belives in you, you work in them. You support them, take care of them.
God sometimes i always fear for what my future will turn out. Will i stay here forever? god i love kk so much, and i would really want to help this church grow. But sometimes i just wish, if i could, or can explore out of m'sia. Get awesome life changing experiences, know new culture. But god i know that you already make the plans for me, and i belive that it will be better and bigger than what i hope for.
God i always worry, about the clothes i wear....places i go, choice i make. but god you said this:
Matthew 6:25-34 "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
And reading about the lifes of all the apostles, they never worry about anything, They just follow your command, do what you asked them to do. And they were all taken care of.. Amazing appostles that encourages me like Paul, Philip, Peter and Stephen, John mark, Barnabas,Timothy and soooooooo much more god. God looking at all their lifes, how much faith thay had, the their heart for you god, really show me that what i am doing with my life is not enough.
God i am still clinging for support, im afraid to step down, afraid to ask, i fear things will be different, ppl will try to stay away from me. Like god preching the word of you, I choose ppl whom i think will accept me. But god, i want to thank you that you open their hearts, and they came for bible talk, they tell me about their struggles. God i really pray you will teach me how to help them, god i really want to teach them about your word. For it change my life 360degrees. and god i want help them in their life too. God beeing a teenager, i know how much that a friend means. God as this age, friends play a really huge role in life, and god i pray that you will teach me how to be a good friend. God you are the bestest friend anybody could every ask for, you are ALWAYS there, always forgiving us, and always making wonderfull things happen in our life.
God please, i want to learn from you :) God i pray that i will learn to reach out to more people, and not by choosing them. God i pray i can help gregory, farah, cornelius, gary, aunt jennifer, selina, ian. God please open their hearts god. They are such amazing ppl, whom play really important role in my life god. God i want to pray for Irean, chong wei yin, brendan, xin yii, ching, nelson, milton, malvin, gerard, thomson, adrian. God all this pppl thirst for you god, god i pray you let me into their life, god i really want to help them and be their awesome friend.
So high school is going to end in 2months, i will be having my trials next week, and SPM in 2 months time. God will make every second count, i do not want to waste any god because i have not much time left, andd i might even be separated from my friends above. God in this 2 months, i pray that you will teach me, help me and support me. Because god i know that you are capable of doing anything,and you are my father.
God i love you so much, thank you again for opening my heart, and now i want to opens others. In jesus name i pray, amen.
God i learn how much the diciple in the old days, how much they did for you. God they didnt have cars to travel, or technology to contact each other, in-fact they had nothing of the materialistic things in the world.
But god i learnt that what kept them living strong was their faith in you. God they trusted you, you who lead them out of egpyt, out of slavery. You how changed them, perform wondorous miricales. God those who belives in you, you work in them. You support them, take care of them.
God sometimes i always fear for what my future will turn out. Will i stay here forever? god i love kk so much, and i would really want to help this church grow. But sometimes i just wish, if i could, or can explore out of m'sia. Get awesome life changing experiences, know new culture. But god i know that you already make the plans for me, and i belive that it will be better and bigger than what i hope for.
God i always worry, about the clothes i wear....places i go, choice i make. but god you said this:
Matthew 6:25-34 "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
And reading about the lifes of all the apostles, they never worry about anything, They just follow your command, do what you asked them to do. And they were all taken care of.. Amazing appostles that encourages me like Paul, Philip, Peter and Stephen, John mark, Barnabas,Timothy and soooooooo much more god. God looking at all their lifes, how much faith thay had, the their heart for you god, really show me that what i am doing with my life is not enough.
God i am still clinging for support, im afraid to step down, afraid to ask, i fear things will be different, ppl will try to stay away from me. Like god preching the word of you, I choose ppl whom i think will accept me. But god, i want to thank you that you open their hearts, and they came for bible talk, they tell me about their struggles. God i really pray you will teach me how to help them, god i really want to teach them about your word. For it change my life 360degrees. and god i want help them in their life too. God beeing a teenager, i know how much that a friend means. God as this age, friends play a really huge role in life, and god i pray that you will teach me how to be a good friend. God you are the bestest friend anybody could every ask for, you are ALWAYS there, always forgiving us, and always making wonderfull things happen in our life.
God please, i want to learn from you :) God i pray that i will learn to reach out to more people, and not by choosing them. God i pray i can help gregory, farah, cornelius, gary, aunt jennifer, selina, ian. God please open their hearts god. They are such amazing ppl, whom play really important role in my life god. God i want to pray for Irean, chong wei yin, brendan, xin yii, ching, nelson, milton, malvin, gerard, thomson, adrian. God all this pppl thirst for you god, god i pray you let me into their life, god i really want to help them and be their awesome friend.
So high school is going to end in 2months, i will be having my trials next week, and SPM in 2 months time. God will make every second count, i do not want to waste any god because i have not much time left, andd i might even be separated from my friends above. God in this 2 months, i pray that you will teach me, help me and support me. Because god i know that you are capable of doing anything,and you are my father.
God i love you so much, thank you again for opening my heart, and now i want to opens others. In jesus name i pray, amen.
Wednesday, 31 August 2011
chapter 3
Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast. If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me," even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you. Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. (Psalm 139:7,9-12,23-24)
god i dont really understand myself. I worry too much, then at the same time, i dont care about my surroundings. I dont know how to explain myself..... now all i have is all the 'dont know' in me. God please show me the light, i feel im stuck in the dark, not sure why or what is happening. I just need to, if possible a miracle to happen, because i am just soooooooooo lost. whyyyyyy.
god i dont really understand myself. I worry too much, then at the same time, i dont care about my surroundings. I dont know how to explain myself..... now all i have is all the 'dont know' in me. God please show me the light, i feel im stuck in the dark, not sure why or what is happening. I just need to, if possible a miracle to happen, because i am just soooooooooo lost. whyyyyyy.
Tuesday, 30 August 2011
Chapter 2
1 Corinthians 13:12 Now we see things imperfectly as in a cloudy mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely.
yes I do not know much. Eventhough i attend church everyweek, went through bible study, baptised, but still, i must go on, to know god, get a stronger relationship with him. I might be struggling to do this (always distracted) but yeap, bit by bit. I need to be serious, consistant, and really commited.
Dear God,
First i want to thank you, thank you for providing my needs, making sure that i stay on track. Thank you for Rebecca Fan. I am just so lucky to have her. She always do her best to make sure i am going well, spritually. God, these days, yes i have been lacking of doing quiet time, prayers. And i would give a zillion excuses, which all this action that will slowly accumulate, and becomes a habit.
But before it does, thanks becca to pull me back on track. When she told me about this blog, i felt something deep. I was excited, touch but scared at the same time. I fear i wont have time to do this, but god THERE IS NO EXCUSE. God sorry, that i always find excuses to defend myself, towards people surrounding me, my family, and sadly you.
Please forgive me, for now i realised that this has pull me away from you. I know i am really stressed about my studies, trials is in a few days, SPM is in 2 months. These exams has been taking over literally my life, even you. God, please help me, help me manage things, help me to focus. I get distracted so easilly, especially towards..boys.
God I want to set my piority to you. YOU will be the first as it was said in Luke 18:29 ("I tell you the truth," Jesus said to them, "no one who has left home or wife or brothers or parents or children for the sake of the kingdom of God) God you will always and forever will be, the first thing in my life. Yes i am going through MAJOR exams, and i have things that i love in this world, but god i know and i choose you first.
I pray that this blog will be living in active, I will write this everyday, no excuses because God with you, i know, things willl turn out fine, better and my surrouding will just get better. God i need you in me, to keep me faithfull, strong as i go through this year end, go through my trials and SPM.
God thank you so much again for looking out for me, it is you who created this earth and everything, and created me. God i love you so much, i pray all these and Jesus name Amen.
Thanks becca x
yes I do not know much. Eventhough i attend church everyweek, went through bible study, baptised, but still, i must go on, to know god, get a stronger relationship with him. I might be struggling to do this (always distracted) but yeap, bit by bit. I need to be serious, consistant, and really commited.
Dear God,
First i want to thank you, thank you for providing my needs, making sure that i stay on track. Thank you for Rebecca Fan. I am just so lucky to have her. She always do her best to make sure i am going well, spritually. God, these days, yes i have been lacking of doing quiet time, prayers. And i would give a zillion excuses, which all this action that will slowly accumulate, and becomes a habit.
But before it does, thanks becca to pull me back on track. When she told me about this blog, i felt something deep. I was excited, touch but scared at the same time. I fear i wont have time to do this, but god THERE IS NO EXCUSE. God sorry, that i always find excuses to defend myself, towards people surrounding me, my family, and sadly you.
Please forgive me, for now i realised that this has pull me away from you. I know i am really stressed about my studies, trials is in a few days, SPM is in 2 months. These exams has been taking over literally my life, even you. God, please help me, help me manage things, help me to focus. I get distracted so easilly, especially towards..boys.
God I want to set my piority to you. YOU will be the first as it was said in Luke 18:29 ("I tell you the truth," Jesus said to them, "no one who has left home or wife or brothers or parents or children for the sake of the kingdom of God) God you will always and forever will be, the first thing in my life. Yes i am going through MAJOR exams, and i have things that i love in this world, but god i know and i choose you first.
I pray that this blog will be living in active, I will write this everyday, no excuses because God with you, i know, things willl turn out fine, better and my surrouding will just get better. God i need you in me, to keep me faithfull, strong as i go through this year end, go through my trials and SPM.
God thank you so much again for looking out for me, it is you who created this earth and everything, and created me. God i love you so much, i pray all these and Jesus name Amen.
Thanks becca x
Psalms 147:1-11
Praise the Lord,
Dearest hannah,
The verse is something that always encourages me when I feel so down, when I feel hurt, When I feel alone, When I feel useless and everything whenever I am insecure.
It took me awhile to get it, But read it line by line meditate when you feel really low, It might help I hope? HAHA.Our father do not care how great we are He delights in those who fear him, those who put their hopes in him, which is what you are doing I can see(: God takes care of everything, the stars, cattles everything. He knows each star by name, He will take care of us, through hard times, He will always be there for us (:
I am so proud of you, How you stand strong and shine so well for God over there where you are alone. It must not be easy alone there, but You stay strong and rely on God. And I am so happy for you. How proud God must be of you(: Everytime we talk you never fail to amaze me with everything you are doing! How fired up you are! And how you keep it up, You are always so happy and excited telling me something new! updating me on your friends and people who are studying the bible!
It really is my honor to have you as my sister, I have so much I want to learn from you(:
However, no matter how strong a person is, As a disciple, she/he will need discipling ,We need friends to help be accountable for each other, We need to help each other, to support and call each other higher. I know you will do well, I do not doubt it, But I can't be at peace cause I don't know how you're own spiritually life is going and thats all that matter to me (: Don't get me wrong I am proud of all you are doing but what is important what I really want to know is how your spiritual life is going, I want to learn from you, and I want to be there for you and support you as a sister.
I know you lead a VERY VERY busy life, But I do hope you could post your quiet time Or prayer up here, so I could keep updated, And feel free to read my quiet time blog, Its a secret blog only you and I know about hahhaa.
Anyway you can change the background if you want(:
withLove,
Your sister,
Becca.
Praise the Lord,
How good it is to sing praises to our God,
how pleasant and fitting to praise him !
The Lord builds up jerusalem;
he gathers the exiles of is real.
He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds .
He determines the number of the stars and calls them each by name.
Great is our Lord and mighty in power;
his understanding has no limit.
The Lord sustains the humble but cast the wicked to the ground.
Sing to the Lord with thanksgiving;
make music to our God on the harp.
He covers the sky with clouds;
he supplies the earth with rain and makes grass grow on the hills.
He provides food for the cattle and for the young taverns when they call.
his pleasure is not in the strength of the horse,
nor his delights in the legs of a man;
The Lord delights in those who fear him,
Who put their hope in his unfailing love.
Dearest hannah,
The verse is something that always encourages me when I feel so down, when I feel hurt, When I feel alone, When I feel useless and everything whenever I am insecure.
It took me awhile to get it, But read it line by line meditate when you feel really low, It might help I hope? HAHA.Our father do not care how great we are He delights in those who fear him, those who put their hopes in him, which is what you are doing I can see(: God takes care of everything, the stars, cattles everything. He knows each star by name, He will take care of us, through hard times, He will always be there for us (:
I am so proud of you, How you stand strong and shine so well for God over there where you are alone. It must not be easy alone there, but You stay strong and rely on God. And I am so happy for you. How proud God must be of you(: Everytime we talk you never fail to amaze me with everything you are doing! How fired up you are! And how you keep it up, You are always so happy and excited telling me something new! updating me on your friends and people who are studying the bible!
It really is my honor to have you as my sister, I have so much I want to learn from you(:
However, no matter how strong a person is, As a disciple, she/he will need discipling ,We need friends to help be accountable for each other, We need to help each other, to support and call each other higher. I know you will do well, I do not doubt it, But I can't be at peace cause I don't know how you're own spiritually life is going and thats all that matter to me (: Don't get me wrong I am proud of all you are doing but what is important what I really want to know is how your spiritual life is going, I want to learn from you, and I want to be there for you and support you as a sister.
I know you lead a VERY VERY busy life, But I do hope you could post your quiet time Or prayer up here, so I could keep updated, And feel free to read my quiet time blog, Its a secret blog only you and I know about hahhaa.
Anyway you can change the background if you want(:
withLove,
Your sister,
Becca.
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