Chapter 2

1 Corinthians 13:12 Now we see things imperfectly as in a cloudy mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely.

yes I do not know much. Eventhough i attend church everyweek, went through bible study, baptised, but still, i must go on, to know god, get a stronger relationship with him. I might be struggling to do this (always distracted) but yeap, bit by bit. I need to be serious, consistant, and really commited.



Dear God,


First i want to thank you, thank you for providing my needs, making sure that i stay on track. Thank you for Rebecca Fan. I am just so lucky to have her. She always do her best to make sure i am going well, spritually. God, these days, yes i have been lacking of doing quiet time, prayers. And i would give a zillion excuses, which all this action that will slowly accumulate, and becomes a habit.


But before it does, thanks becca to pull me back on track. When she told me about this blog, i felt something deep. I was excited, touch but scared at the same time. I fear i wont have time to do this, but god THERE IS NO EXCUSE. God sorry, that i always find excuses to defend myself, towards people surrounding me, my family, and sadly you.


Please forgive me, for now i realised that this has pull me away from you. I know i am really stressed about my studies, trials is in a few days, SPM is in 2 months. These exams has been taking over literally my life, even you. God, please help me, help me manage things, help me to focus. I get distracted so easilly, especially towards..boys.


God I want to set my piority to you. YOU will be the first as it was said in Luke 18:29 ("I tell you the truth," Jesus said to them, "no one who has left home or wife or brothers or parents or children for the sake of the kingdom of God) God you will always and forever will be, the first thing in my life. Yes i am going through MAJOR exams, and i have things that i love in this world, but god i know and i choose you first.


I pray that this blog will be living in active, I will write this everyday, no excuses because God with you, i know, things willl turn out fine, better and my surrouding will just get better. God i need you in me, to keep me faithfull, strong as i go through this year end, go through my trials and SPM.


God thank you so much again for looking out for me, it is you who created this earth and everything, and created me. God i love you so much, i pray all these and Jesus name Amen.

 Thanks becca x