Chapter 5

The book of john, it mention various time about who Jesus is. Until now, sometimes, i might have a doubt about who jesus is. Sometimes i asked myself again, whats with me and Christianity?, why am i following this 'way'. or is jesus really is the messiah? i often lose conviction...


but, Looking at this passage, gives me the answers and remind me once again who jesus is.
John8:12- I am the from above.
:20 - I am the good Shepard
-I am the Resurrection
- I am the way and the light.


In john 9:1-4 THE HEALING OF THE BLIND MAN
this is, there were 4 characters.
1. The Neighbour- They saw and heard with their very own ears and eyes, they saw the miracles jesus did. Making the blind see, but they were skeptical. 
They were criticising, thinking of ways to find a weak point, or a negative spot. Sometimes when we see something, or heard about it, we tend to find mistrust.


2. The Pharisees- They think of this as a breaking of tradition, that Jesus is a trouble-making prejudice.
They put a limit to their own mindset. To such a standard that they judge everything. They stop and give up seeking, and stop in righteousness. They become Prejudice. They saw, they heard about the blind man, but still they keep questioning him, when the answer was obvious and right in front of their eyes. 


3. Parents- they had fear. They did not just make a stand. i mean c'mon, their son was healed, but instead of praising god, and thanking jesus, they felt scared.


and last 4. The blind man. -he was simple in answering: ''i was blind, but now i see''.

Dear god, thank you so much that this awesome lesson was taught by ZQ. god im so happy that aunt grace and her family are here, to help the church, my parents and me. God i have learn sooooooo much just by a story in the bible of yours. It doesn't only help me spiritually, but physically. God im sorry i was so naive and always have a thinking that i am lost, i am following this nonsense, and i always think, was jesus real? like i had soooooooo many doubts.


But god one of the answer is, Jesus changed me. Who in this world will die for my sin? and love me, and promise me i will have eternal life? where can i find words and stories about living the way god wants me to, or the right life? God in this century, this time, if i was not preach to the bible, or not told, god only you know what i will become today.


Sometimes i ask, why jesus? why christian? then i thought back about the word study, about seeking god, sometimes just refreshing back, i gain the answers from different point of view. God i was lost, mess up, and you were there to lift me, change me. And look at me now god, not only my life had change, but my surroundings, was inspired because of my life, of how you use me now, and what i learnt from you.


God, i don't want to be like the neighbours, pharisees, or the blind man parents. I want to be like the blind man. God i was blind, but now i can see. That's me. You open up my eyes, show me what life is all about, what LOVE is all about. God you were there to pull my parents back together. They were literally falling apart, but because of you god. they manage to fix things.


God i really want to pray that my conviction will continue to grow, god i want to grow for you. I know how power full you are and how much you love me. God, there is no other greater love than you. I pray that i will learn, how to love. God you are not only powerful but gentle.


God i will be having my trials tmr, pls help me through because i know i really do need you. God please, i want to do well in this trials, and my SPM. :D


god i want to pray for my relationship with my sister, god pls teach me how to be a good example, and i want to love her and want her to know that i love her and care about her. God please open my heart, and hers.


God i love you so much, thank you again for what you have done in my life, all this amazing miracles. In jesus name i pray, Amen.